Yes, as the title indicates, this post is all about breastfeeding. If the the subject of breastfeeding grosses you out (and I know it does gross some people out) or makes you uncomfortable, I suggest you skip this post and come back another day. :)
Let's see...I will start with how breastfeeding went with Michael. I was determined to EBF (exclusively breastfeed) him as long as I could. I was lucky enough to have a nice long maternity leave - 13 weeks - and pumped as much as I could during that time to store up for daycare. But unfortunately, I
was not lucky enough to have an over abundance of milk production. When I would pump, I would not have enough to feed Michael when he was hungry, and ended up with a pretty cranky baby. No matter how much I tried, my supply just didn't increase to support doing both. So I was not able to have a huge frozen reserve by the time I went back to work. I think the daycare blew through that in about a week's time.
I would pump while I was at work, but I remember being so busy that I would look at the clock and realize it had been 5 hours since I last pumped. That would happen quite often, and I would end up pumping only twice during my work day. Well, at that pace, my supply would decrease daily. By the third week back to work, I was only pumping 3 ounces a day, in the 8 hours I was there, and by the end of the 4th week, I was pretty much done. I had made it just over 4 months of breastfeeding, even though that last week probably shouldn't even count!
I felt like a failure, and that I didn't commit to it like I should have. I admit also feeling a relief, that I was the sole user of my body again, and I could do to it whatever I wanted. :)
But I still felt guilt.
So here we are, with a new baby, and a second chance. I told Mike that my goal was to EBF for 6 months. I knew this was a pretty unrealistic goal, unless my supply was different this time around. So I did revise it to where I wanted to at least be 50/50 between breast milk and formula until at least 6 months.
I started Allison off better this time around. I had a pretty good reserve built up for her first week of daycare. I actually had some stored breast milk left going into the second week. But by the end of that week, they were having to supplement with formula. I think they were feeding her breast milk most of the day, and would give her maybe 2-3 ounces of formula at the end of the day. So, I was pretty proud that she was getting breast milk 90% of the time, since we were EBF while at home.
But then week 3 of daycare arrived, and my sweet little girl became a pig! LOL! She went from eating 2-3 ounces per feeding to around 4 ounces. Since I was pumping maybe 7 ounces a day at work, that meant the last feeding at daycare was now about 4 ounces of formula. I was still EBF at home, but her formula intake was a little more now.
So, as we approach the four month mark (next week!), I am reflecting on where I am at now, versus with Michael. I am happy to report that I am still pumping, and getting about 6 ounces a day, with some days going a little more, and it seems that my supply is hanging steady right there. Allison keeps eating around 4 ounces per feeding, so I am guessing she is having maybe 6 ounces of formula at daycare now. I am also now giving her some formula in the evenings, maybe 2-3 ounces, but I am ok with that. She is getting mommy's milk before bed, at the middle-of-the-night feeding, and before going to daycare. I don't think we are 50/50 yet, but it's getting close.
I am pretty proud that I have done this well, considering I went back to work 3 weeks earlier than I did with Michael. But I wonder each week if this will be the last week. I plan to keep doing what I am doing until my body throws in the towel. Will I make it to 6 months? I am not sure. Only time will tell. Wish us luck!